why must these things happen to me... i dont want the past incident to come back.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RACHEL.. please.. i really cant bear all this.. i really need you... yong han, alex and jerron and my grandson tried to talk to me.. but nothing can cheer me up.. i was so down just now.. i smoke a lot just now.. till i really shiver.. i could just get hit by a motor just now.. but thanks to yong han, he pull me.. i wasnt in a mood for everything. i went insane just now.. i just sat alone at cp.. didnt even talk to anyone.. ride alone.. not in a mood to eat.. i didnt even ate the whole day.. they tried talk to me, but i just dont have the mood to talk to them.. sorry guys.. i was just heartbroke.. you've always in my heart..


p.s ILY RACHEL